i've moved!
www.tequila7.blogspot.com


feeling .... restless;

i just need to rant.
so i came online again.
i miss him! yah.. and in a few moments more,
he'll be beside me..
but i hate waiting. and waiting. and waiting and waiting.
i want to eat strawberries and amos cookies so badly.

went for dinner with ma just now and saw a tall familiar figure.
HONGwei! wah..really very long never see him, should be about a
year? after his bday last yr. and tml is his birthday! so thats about how
long i have not meet up with him. and just before that i was chatting with
him, kept thinking that it is 26th today.


ate BAh Ku Teh
but it just doesnt taste as good as eating it with him and
usually i'll just gobble up the food. now, i could barely
finish it..
then i went to the cake shop and bought two cakes for us.
i ate 1/2 of one piece. and put it back. so i can wait for him
and SHARE!


playing with colours;



i sound crazy these days. couldnt help.. hallucinating.
thinking too much. fear that crept slowly into my heart.
shivers that come running through my spine. 101 different qns
that go popping in my head. oh fcuk.
i wish i could feel better.
luckily. i had good laugh last night. that kept things off
my mind for a while.
as i watch the guys performing magic. and my eyes
glued to those transvertites at Changi. they are so pretty and
slim, except i felt some strangeness in the shape of their faces.
overall they are intimidating.


plitter platter plitter platter
it's Raining!!
i'm tiredddd...
no matter how many hours i stay in bed, i still cant really open
my eyes. and now i have eye bags!
went rounding last night, came home bout 3?
cant remember.. was so shagged.. my mind in a wreck.
i just kept going out non stop. i felt i really need a
B-R-E-A-K

well anyway..bought the maybelline watershine lip gloss
yest. after so much consideration. to find the perfect
sheer pink lip gloss.. not sure if it gave the desired effect.
cos the colour seems quite transparent
but i like it (:
and now

i want this!!


saw this on the mag, i also want the fancl mild cleansing oil.
but i'm truly out of cash!

after that, i decided to clean up my room.
since i'm feeling so unwell, i couldnt go anywhere!
and got nothing else to do.
and need to burn some fats!


1st.. everything frm the wardrobe cupboards,
goes to the bed.



almost done..
cant say i'm neat. still messy.
but things can be found easily now.
more organised!



it's hard to clean up my room as it is not
really my room. takes alot of effort to squeeze the amt of
stuff i have in such a small space.

on monday:
manage to persaude him to sing ktv with me.
like real.
he sat there and listen to my singing for god damm
3 hours. lol... but i'm happy!!! finally get to sing
cantonese songs for him to hear.

on tues:
bought the exact same top and shorts
with kel. cos we both love it so much! lol.

camping on wed:



busy busy..set up


TADA! our little tent!



dont know why he giving such a cheeky smile lol



night time bbq-ing



snapshots.

had mac's Chocolate Truffle cake at 3 a.m in the morning.
got disturbed by the rain and noises out side!
next morning, swimming again!
despite carrying so many stuff, we still head off to town
for amos cookies!! that i craved for it so much!
watched " The Hills have eyes" crappy show,
gross.. and i hate it. is disgusting and yah just idiotic show.

got to prepare soon, leaving for msia tonight.
dont even have my hp with me, cant even msg him sighh!
will be back on mon night! (:
tata


perhaps no body understands
because seriously i dont too.
and i dont expect anyone to
feel the way i feel now.
trying to be strong, happy, and love myself.
try to keep judgements a distance away from me.
exhausted.

i'm trying to keep unhappy things out of my mind
things that bothers me.
feeling so horrible right now.
getting crankier every minute.
and i just dont wish to care abt any fcuking shit.
or get so bothered by it.
but it bothers me because i hate to see what i sees.
kae.
fcuking tired now.
still considering whether i should..go rounding with him.
maybe it just might keep things out of my head
i'm just need people that makes me feel
alright. and makes me feel who i am

chaos